Changes

Dear Biscuit & Sparkly Watermelon,

It's been too long, and I'm sorry. I lost my writing mojo. 

I'm back, though, because today was a big day. We became a family of five today when your first foster sister, Gracie, arrived this morning. We were also lunch helpers at Biscuit's school. Claire, a 2 month old who I babysit and love, was also here. And it was Halloween?!!!?! About the only thing I didn't get to do today was vote early in the 2016 US Presidential election. 

Biscuit took to Gracie quite well. I liked watching her chase Gracie around the house. 

I have so many unanswered questions and unfamiliar feelings about our newest chapter- some are good and some are not. I think it will be fascinating to look back at this someday to compare where we are at. 

All in all, it was a beautiful disaster of a day. It was like we had really high highs or I was crying. Thank God Magia happened to be visiting. I don't know if I could have managed it without her. 

All my love,

Mama

 

Nightmare

Dear Biscuit & Sparkly Watermelon,

I've been up since 2am; had a bad dream about my grandmother who passed away 10 years ago. I've been reminded often lately of how quickly time passes, life passes, and aging. I'm sure that's what my sleeping subconscious mind was trying to grapple with. 

For the first time, our dog, Angel, didn't jump up to greet me as I made my coffee. She's feeling the quick passage of time, too, I think. 

So I'm up early, not going for a run and just enjoying the dark and silent house, finishing a book and as always, thinking of you two. 

All my love,

Mama